Well, I guess this is the only place I can express myself freely, since blogs and all these stuff don't last very long ...


I know I need something, but I don't know what exactly, and how to get it. I've entered some kind of "static" state lately, I feel like I don't grow or learn, or even evolve like other (normal) people do. Everytime I try to put an end to it, something messes up. The worst part is that I'm blaming a couple of persons for that, not even myself (I guess) but I know I shouldn't.

I cannot be what some people want me to be, I have to tell them that they cannot rely on me .. but it's too much for me. I don't want to hurt them, isn't there another option ? Am I supposed to live like this ? Is that why I cannot escape from all of this ?
In fact, I'm refraining myself from making the situation change because .. there's no other option.


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Okay I got it. I'm gonna sit there and rot slowly, until something good happens to me (or maybe even cure my foolishness).



Oh and about Art .. well really, it's not something for me .. Just check my Faves, thare are many good things in there.